The Nickle

I gave it to her randomly one day at work.  It was just a nickle some customer didn't want and I didn't want to put it in my penny tray.  So I gave it to her.  She still has it.  It's just a stupid piece of metal with Jefferson's face on it.  But it means so much to me right now.  It symbolizes something so much more.  I don't know if it did when I first gave it to her, but it sure does now.  I gave her my heart, and she has kept it safe.  She always will.

We spent another almost 10 hour day together.  When I'm with her I am so incredibly happy, you can't begin to understand.  When I'm not with her, she dominates my every thought.  I am starting to beat back my insomnia because of her, which sounds weird because I always stay up talking to her.  I found myself just staring at her several times yesterday (so did she... whoops).  I just can't believe this person is willingly in my life.  Every time we make eye contact, I freeze.  My heart chokes, my lungs stop taking air, and all my brain says is "Oh my lord she's beautiful!"

Justin has no idea what he gave up.  No idea what I will refuse to give up.  He has no idea what a beautiful flower he tried to trample.  If he wants to start harassing me because of all this... bring it.  I would spend an eternity in hell for just one more glance at that beautifully perfect smile.  She means more to me than anyone else, even myself.  Justin thinks he can control who she spends time with, he will be sadly mistaken.  Though he did do one thing right, he got her to move over here so she and I could get so incredibly close.  Maybe I'll thank him for that next time I see him...

If ever there was a person I have met to make me believe in soul mates or destiny... it would be her.  I've never felt this way about anyone before... not even autumn.  Makes me realize I've never been in love before... until her.  There is not a single cell, one little molecule in my entire body that isn't crazy about her.  (yes strange to think that the hair on the back of my neck is crazy about her... but it is somehow)  There is no one else I'd rather see, no one else I'd rather spend time with, no one else in my heart but her.

I love you Amanda Gerros.  I'll never stop loving you.  I'll only love you more with each passing second.  I gave her a nickle once... yesterday I gave her a quarter.  I promised you the world, now I'm 20 cents closer.

My heart, soul, mind, and body are all yours.  Thank you for everything!