...I am so incredibly insanely happy right now. I don't care that justin's mom is commenting on Amanda's facebook a little snidely... I don't care that Justin will probably do his best to paint us as some kind of homewrecking couple. Especially considering the only person really in both our lives.... is justin. He will try to egg me on, but while his support system is made up of drug users, mine is made up of strong family, friends, and coworkers. I won't stoop to his level for a fight, that just gives him what he wants. He's not worth the effort.
Amanda on the other hand... is worth any effort.
I don't even know how it happened. I remember seeing her walk up in her minnie mouse costume on Halloween and thinking... damn she's pretty good lookin... justin's lucky, and that was it. I will build friendships, but I will NOT go after a woman who's attached to another man. So time went on and I just kept my distance, even developed a little crush on her best friend at one point. That faded... then Justin did the dumb thing and dumped her. Now I'm at her place, we're just playing a bizarre game poking each other. Then I wound up holding her hand and... time stopped. I squeezed her hand slightly and she squeezed back, the we let go... I can't wait til we hold hands again, then we do...
That's when everything went cloud 900. I'm still there.
I love her, I have for a long time. I am so happy I have her. I keep pinching myself, so far I still feel pain. I will never let her go without a super battle. I give her my mind, body, heart and soul. I can't wait to see where this leads. I love you with all my heart Amanda Gerros!!!!!!!!!!
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