Last night was perfect. Amanda and I were talking and holding each other, and then we slept together. Now before you go imagining what you're all imagining... we did not have sex. We both agree we want that moment to be special. What wound up happening was better than sex. We just fell asleep in each other's arms. I loved it! When I dated Autumn, we slept together pretty much from day 1, or 3... but it always had to involve some sort of sexual activity. I'm not talking kissing or cuddling, no I mean much more. I hated it. I don't feel that pressure with Amanda. In fact... I don't feel any pressure from her at all.
I've still been semi-guarded around her. Not nearly as much as many of you think I should be I'm sure, but still guarded. Afraid I was going to lose her. She is so amazing it might still happen. Today, however, I am throwing caution to the wind. I am going to fall as hard as possible for her. I love her so much it's scientifically impossible... yet I'm going to love her even more by the end of the night.
Short one today... I'll just say that Amanda and I are soul mates. We should last, I hope we last. Because I can't imagine myself ever being able to love anyone else after her.
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