The Crash

I'm coming off my pain meds... and judging by the pain I've been feeling, that's too soon. Last night was awful, not a wink of sleep. Have you ever had a night when some part of your body did nothing but torture you, and all you had to pass the time was your thoughts? My thoughts turned on a great deal of subjects, and well... it wasn't the shiny night to a good day I was hoping for. In fact... the whole night started downhill when a friend called me... crying her eyes out. I am not complaining that they called me. You all know that I do my best to listen when a friend needs me. I am, however, incredibly angry that it had to happen this way. I want her to know that she is one of my most treasured friends, that I will stand by her forever, and that I'm sorry for what she's going through.

I won't go into details, but suffice it to say, I absolutely despise some members of my gender. They treat women like objects and run them off the market for the rest of us who actually care. I can't tell you how angry this makes me. So I vented to another person about these emotions... and got that oh so wonderful response: "I don't think you really do know how to treat a woman, I mean, you're still single." Really? REALLY?!

Now folks, when I'm coming off pain meds, my body reacts differently than most others do. For some reason, one week for me is like 6 months for other people. When I come off pain meds, my whole attitude on life crashes. My usual bright take on things is replaced by a far more depressing tone. Things that usually don't bother me disturb me greatly. I get sent into an artificial depression and my skin isn't so thick anymore.

That one hurt.

Now you guys know me. I'm not the kind of guy who has to have a girl, any girl, so long as he has a girl. I'm not going to settle for less than I deserve. Now if only I could find one who fits that category and likes me too :P. That does not mean I don't get lonely from time to time. Now I'm already angry because of how one of my friends was treated by her ex (it better be ex, not current or we're having another phone call), then when I go to you for some emotional support so I can help her you basically tell me I don't treat women right because I'm still single? I pride myself on how I treat my friends... and I thought you understood that. Maybe I've just been had all along.

By the way guys, if you're reading this one (especially on blogger) and you compare it to my others, this one is gonna completely lack structure... sorry. But on the subject of how that waste of genetic material treated his girlfriend. WHAT THE HELL MAN?! You had an amazing woman, but that wasn't good enough for you?! When you have found someone you truly care about, and they truly care about you, you can find yourself in a whole new place.

I have a lot of random adventures I want to do someday. I don't want to just see Iowa, I want to see the world. I want to meet all kinds of new people. I want to hear people's amazing stories. I hunger for it, I can't live without it. Someday, maybe I'll find someone who will want to do these things with me. When I do... you can bet I'll never hurt her like that. We will have too many stories to share, and far too many to discover. I pity you.

By the way, go to gamejolt and look up a game called a purr tale... with the crash I'm in... it brought tears to my eyes.