This one is controversial... So controversial I refuse to put it on facebook... and maybe I should reserve it for one of my three secret blogs... (which I never told you about ;-) )
I see such hate in this world... That's all mankind is good at spreading. I see so few stories about something good being done, or compassion on this Earth... it really starts to discourage me. My society states that there are so many other societies that will never stop fighting. So what do we do? We fight first. Is there love left? I don't see anyone who is able to put themselves in someone else's shoes. I have not met many people who think what their actions will do to another person from the other person's perspective. Out of those few, some do the actions fully knowing the harm it will do. That's a special kind of selfishness. It boggles the mind to think that the same political party that is dead set against gun registration is in support of the patriot act. It really bugs me when they quote Benjamin Franklin by saying "Those who sacrifice liberty to obtain temporary safety deserve neither," and don't see the huge idiocy. (Now in my opinion, gun registration has nothing to do with liberty but that's a different blog for a different time.) We sold our soul and became everything we've ever hated. And the reason is just one world... fear.
Or how about I use a synonym for fear? Terror. That's right, terror has changed our identity. That thing the terrorists are spreading to change America... well they spread it... and it changed America. We're in terror that the government is going to take away our guns. We're in terror that the government is becoming rooted in facism. We're in terror that Obama might be the next Hitler. We torture prisoners (cuz we are still stuck in the middle ages) and we justify getting away with it because they're not American citizens. We have only the concept of American rights... no concepts of human rights anymore. We're so xenophobic that when France did not support Bush's actions in Iraq, America decided to hate France... even though it turned out France was right. Let me reduce this to a schoolyard setting. America got all his friends to make fun of France because France didn't want to beat up Iraq simply for being friends with Afghanistan and maybe having some stink bombs. That's America for you... the fucking Jr. High student of the UN.
Nerdmode: When I was in Colorado for my cousin's wedding a couple years ago, we took a week off and made a vacation of it (like you do). Well on Sunday morning in church, I noticed in their bulletin that they had a Star Trek bible study that night. I told my parents about it and sure enough it was just as it sounds. They watch an episode of some form of Star Trek, read some scriptures that tie in to a theme in the episode, and have a discussion about it. The leader of the study picked an old favorite from the original series: Balance of Terror. It involves the Enterprise pursuing a Romulan warbird after it attacks several outposts, and makes a point of the parallels between Kirk and the Romulan commander, having one of the best lines in the series at the end: "In a different reality, I could have called you friend." This last line also fit in with the subplot which was the theme of the study. A bridge officer of the Enterprise is descended from some servicemen who served during the war with the Romulans. As such, he harbors a deep resentment towards the Romulans, a race that no one has ever even seen before. A whole war fought with a race you have no idea what they look like. Well then we get our first look at them... and they have pointed ears... in fact it is revealed that Romulans and Vulcans share ancestry... which makes this bridge officer lose it on Mr. Spock.
End Nerdmode
The point of that paragraph was to set up the discussion that followed. The study leader explained that such resentment and lack of forgiveness nearly cost the ship its life. As the discussion moved towards forgiving our enemies, the inevitable case of Osama Bin Laden was brought up. Should we forgive him? The study leader replied that while we should lock him up so he cannot harm again, we should not kill him. That matter of life or death should not be left up to us.
That night Osama Bin Laden was killed.
I keep thinking what that leader must have thought. Here she just told this group of people that Bin Laden should be spared and then the whole of American public opinion just kinda backlashed her. At the time I felt like a weight had been lifted, that we finally had him. Now that I look back... it was wrong. I remember the old Superman stories, always started with truth, justice, and the American way! But Superman never killed. He even went so far as to refuse to exterminate a virus because it was still life. The American way used to be locking the bad guy up, or his dying by his own hand. Superman could not ever bring himself to do it. One issue... he did. He killed three criminals for destroying billions of people. The act wound up haunting him forever... well until DC rebooted. American way used to involve a soul... it doesn't anymore. We're too afraid. Terror has changed us.
The terrorists won.
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Monday, April 29, 2013
VENT
Things that bug me right now:
People who can't take a fucking hint that when it takes me fucking forever to respond to a text, it's cuz i'm fucking sleeping
People that when told i'm sleeping cuz i have work tonite, keep fucking texting me
Girls who try to break up my relationship (some to date me, others for their own fucking reasons)
Guys who do the same (you couldn't even begin to fathom how awesome Amanda is, you can't handle her, don't even fucking try)
People who read a couple of my blogs and think they have me figured out
Things I thought were fucking confidential weren't so confidential... I respect your privacy, do the fucking same for me
Fucking idiots who think that because I'm Christian, I'm dumb, HEY RETARD!!! TRY NOT TO FUCKING GENERALIZE!!!! cuz you know... that kind of prejudice sounds VERY smart
People who think that because they're Christian, they're better than everyone else WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU!!!!
The fact that my fly trap got knocked over so now I have to buy a new one
The fact that a VERY important part of my life is 2000 miles away
Overnights
My manager is a fucking moron... I'm sorry, but the dumbest of my cats could run the store better than you
The fact that my motivation slipped and I haven't gone walking for a week
The fact that the weather was awesome, but because of my work schedule and my parents, had no time to go for a walk
The fact that the weather is going to go down to the 30's this weekend... WTF
The fact that my mother refuses to let my dad help me work on my house, because she wants a rummage sale for THEIR house
My mother
The fact that I have lost any ability to compose any music and everything I come up with sounds like complete and utter fucking crap
I feel my intelligence going down... soon I'll actually be equal to the idiots in this fucking town
That the simple beauty and culture of Iowa is being overshadowed by the worst elements of it, namely the fucking rednecks
Self centered high school kids who think the world has to revolve around them (oh college is going to fuck you hard... as well as some horny co-ed who doesn't want to use protection... have fun changing diapers)
The fact that I have more education than 3/4 of this fucking town, but they all think I'm a fucking idiot and can't believe I can give them correct change (you idiot I can do math so far above your fucking head, of course I can give you $1.67 back)
The fact that I found out that chocolate soy milk actually tastes good...
That starting the first of May... I'm giving up all pop and carbonated beverages... and I'm going to be in hell
That I'm actually going to go on a diet and all the health food costs twice as much as the crap food... no wonder obesity is an epidemic in this country
The fact that my idiot ignorant manager thinks that basic need stuff like food for the unfortunate in the form of food stamps is something she doesn't think we taxpayers have to fucking sink our money in to, but it's fine for her daughter's $40,000 a year salary
The fact that some of you will read that and take it as "Luke doesn't think teachers should get paid well"
The fact that some of you are now wondering how I DID mean it.
The fact that we keep fucking football in school, but music, drama, and the other fine arts have to struggle to maintain their place
The fact that I make so little I'll never be able to afford a new trombone
I wish people were excited or happy to have me as part of their life... rather than just tolerant
Since my loans are kicking my ass, I can't get any credit going
The fact that my emotional support system out here only consists of two people... one of which I can't even trust with my cat...
People who can't take a fucking hint that when it takes me fucking forever to respond to a text, it's cuz i'm fucking sleeping
People that when told i'm sleeping cuz i have work tonite, keep fucking texting me
Girls who try to break up my relationship (some to date me, others for their own fucking reasons)
Guys who do the same (you couldn't even begin to fathom how awesome Amanda is, you can't handle her, don't even fucking try)
People who read a couple of my blogs and think they have me figured out
Things I thought were fucking confidential weren't so confidential... I respect your privacy, do the fucking same for me
Fucking idiots who think that because I'm Christian, I'm dumb, HEY RETARD!!! TRY NOT TO FUCKING GENERALIZE!!!! cuz you know... that kind of prejudice sounds VERY smart
People who think that because they're Christian, they're better than everyone else WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU!!!!
The fact that my fly trap got knocked over so now I have to buy a new one
The fact that a VERY important part of my life is 2000 miles away
Overnights
My manager is a fucking moron... I'm sorry, but the dumbest of my cats could run the store better than you
The fact that my motivation slipped and I haven't gone walking for a week
The fact that the weather was awesome, but because of my work schedule and my parents, had no time to go for a walk
The fact that the weather is going to go down to the 30's this weekend... WTF
The fact that my mother refuses to let my dad help me work on my house, because she wants a rummage sale for THEIR house
My mother
The fact that I have lost any ability to compose any music and everything I come up with sounds like complete and utter fucking crap
I feel my intelligence going down... soon I'll actually be equal to the idiots in this fucking town
That the simple beauty and culture of Iowa is being overshadowed by the worst elements of it, namely the fucking rednecks
Self centered high school kids who think the world has to revolve around them (oh college is going to fuck you hard... as well as some horny co-ed who doesn't want to use protection... have fun changing diapers)
The fact that I have more education than 3/4 of this fucking town, but they all think I'm a fucking idiot and can't believe I can give them correct change (you idiot I can do math so far above your fucking head, of course I can give you $1.67 back)
The fact that I found out that chocolate soy milk actually tastes good...
That starting the first of May... I'm giving up all pop and carbonated beverages... and I'm going to be in hell
That I'm actually going to go on a diet and all the health food costs twice as much as the crap food... no wonder obesity is an epidemic in this country
The fact that my idiot ignorant manager thinks that basic need stuff like food for the unfortunate in the form of food stamps is something she doesn't think we taxpayers have to fucking sink our money in to, but it's fine for her daughter's $40,000 a year salary
The fact that some of you will read that and take it as "Luke doesn't think teachers should get paid well"
The fact that some of you are now wondering how I DID mean it.
The fact that we keep fucking football in school, but music, drama, and the other fine arts have to struggle to maintain their place
The fact that I make so little I'll never be able to afford a new trombone
I wish people were excited or happy to have me as part of their life... rather than just tolerant
Since my loans are kicking my ass, I can't get any credit going
The fact that my emotional support system out here only consists of two people... one of which I can't even trust with my cat...
Thursday, April 4, 2013
Day 05-your definition of love
oooooo here's an interesting one. Love comes in many forms. There's friendship love, there's familial love, there's compassion love, romantic love, and caring love. To me love at its heart means a willingness to do what you can to make the object of your love happy. When someone loves their pet, they want a good and happy life for said pet. When a man loves a woman (you read that in song didn't you?) he wants her to be truly happy. Even if it is not with him. It is that selfless attitude that separates love from the lesser forms like lust.
Day 04--What you ate today
2 mocha rockstar roasts from casey's
a sausage croissant sandwich from casey's
some cocoa krispies
cheesy hashbrowns
ham sandwich
another short one
a sausage croissant sandwich from casey's
some cocoa krispies
cheesy hashbrowns
ham sandwich
another short one
Day 03-Your Parents
Well what to say about my parents. My dad is a minister and my mother is a... well she loves working for newspapers. Right now she's selling ads. My dad went to college in his late 20's and now has a master's in theology. My mom has a bachelor's in business. My mom was big in to sports, my dad was a farm guy. My mom has one brother, my dad has 6 brothers and one sister. There really isn't much else to say... so.... SHORT POST!!!!
DAY 02--Your First Love
Ok well I failed after only one day at this... (working overnights and trying to clean out one house while remodeling another takes it out of you...) but I shall catch up now. So let's jump right in.
My first love... do you mean like the first crush I had when I was really little... or the first time I actually fell for someone? I'll go with the first time I fell for someone, it's more interesting and tragic. (Again no real names). Her name was Nikki. We went to school together and my first year at that school (was 6th grade) we weren't that close, but starting late that year and then working into jr. high, we started getting closer. I think it was driver's ed where we really took off. By the time we got to high school, we were best friends. Then we started taking band trips and choir trips (the jazz groups traveled a lot) and we were always together. Then came that dreaded moment... the moment I realized I thought of her as more than a friend. Well at first I don't think the feeling was reciprocated... at all. Then by our Junior year... things started to change. But since Luke has never been very good with the ladies, I didn't ask her to our junior prom. I remember thinking that I was going to ask her right after xmas break got over. I got a call the day after xmas... she went to a friend's family xmas and met the friend's brother... and that's when everything fell apart. He treated her like a sex toy, and it kills me. She was a fair princess between high school and college and when we were there... she just spent the whole time flirting with other guys and ignoring me, then almost just got in to some random guy's car. That was the other turning point. We started going to the same college, but she kept having guys sleep with her, and one time we even slept together (no funny stuff just sleep) But everything kind of fell through during college, we grew in to two separate people. Now she is dating some guy twice her age who isn't the nicest guy and she has two kids with him. Who knows what would have happened if I asked her to prom first, but it really doesn't matter now does it?
My first love... do you mean like the first crush I had when I was really little... or the first time I actually fell for someone? I'll go with the first time I fell for someone, it's more interesting and tragic. (Again no real names). Her name was Nikki. We went to school together and my first year at that school (was 6th grade) we weren't that close, but starting late that year and then working into jr. high, we started getting closer. I think it was driver's ed where we really took off. By the time we got to high school, we were best friends. Then we started taking band trips and choir trips (the jazz groups traveled a lot) and we were always together. Then came that dreaded moment... the moment I realized I thought of her as more than a friend. Well at first I don't think the feeling was reciprocated... at all. Then by our Junior year... things started to change. But since Luke has never been very good with the ladies, I didn't ask her to our junior prom. I remember thinking that I was going to ask her right after xmas break got over. I got a call the day after xmas... she went to a friend's family xmas and met the friend's brother... and that's when everything fell apart. He treated her like a sex toy, and it kills me. She was a fair princess between high school and college and when we were there... she just spent the whole time flirting with other guys and ignoring me, then almost just got in to some random guy's car. That was the other turning point. We started going to the same college, but she kept having guys sleep with her, and one time we even slept together (no funny stuff just sleep) But everything kind of fell through during college, we grew in to two separate people. Now she is dating some guy twice her age who isn't the nicest guy and she has two kids with him. Who knows what would have happened if I asked her to prom first, but it really doesn't matter now does it?
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