Day 1

Day 1: Introductions

That is me... well the one on the right.  I'm not Mr. 47... I'm not a killer.  If you thought I was... well then you should really be reading this one.  I live in Garner... soon Klemme.  I am in the process of remodeling a house in Klemme.  I work at a convenience store called Casey's.  It's horrible.  The hours suck... it's not unusual for me to work 16 hour days.  The pay sucks worse.  The only good thing that has happened from my time there is meeting my current girlfriend.  I will take a page from her book and not use her real name so we will call her... Ace.

That's Ace sportin' the super cool shades.  She's pretty cool and also just plain pretty.  We have a lot of fun together.  But here's the hard part: she recently moved to her home state of Arizona. (That's also where that photo was taken)  We're dorks together and it works very well actually. 

I'm currently staying in my parents' basement until my house gets done, and the only 2 animals living in that house right now are my 2 kittens. (I'll actually use their real names since they can't sue)  Jade and Kiwi.  2 very pretty kitties I've had all their life.  Now I don't have any photos on this computer, but more will come... I promise.

Well that's good for day 1... stay tuned til next time.

30 days

Ok... I'm going to do this 30 day thing... (we'll see).  This will appear on both my blogs so if you found a blog entitled The Starving Writer... you're gonna get very bored.  Here's the 30 days:

Day 01 – Introduce yourself with pictures and words

Day 02 – Your first love


Day 03 – Your parents


Day 04 – What you ate today 


Day 05 – Your definition of love


Day 06 – Your day

Day 07 – Your best friend


Day 08 – A moment


Day 09 – Your beliefs

Day 10 – What you wore today 


Day 11 – Your siblings


Day 12 – What’s in your bag


Day 13 – This week

Day 14 – What you wore today

Day 15 – Your dreams

Day 16 – Your first kiss

Day 17 – Your favorite memory


Day 18 – Your favorite birthday

Day 19 – Something you regret


Day 20 – This month


Day 21 – Another moment


Day 22 – Something that upsets you

Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better


Day 24 – Something that makes you cry

Day 25 – A first

Day 26 – Your fears

Day 27 – Your favorite place


Day 28 – Something that you miss


Day 29 – Your aspirations


Day 30 – One last moment

Where?

Well Amanda is living in Arizona now.  I'm just sitting here wishing I had gone with.  For those of you who don't know and care (I doubt there are any) I am going to be going back to school.  Hopefully this fall, but we'll see.  Believe it or not, it's in a completely different field.  Oh don't worry, I'll still write music every now and then, but I'm going into one of two areas, medical laboratory or forensic science.  There's just something that appeals to me about using lab equipment to figure out puzzles.  Both of these careers also help others.  I would actually be making a difference.  This would definitely beat Casey's...

I know I've jumped around a lot, but it's just... ever since that kid at fareway 3 years ago, I haven't been able to shake my feelings of inadequacy... I feel like I am not living up to my life.  I was told at my grandmother's funeral that the best thing I can do is live a life that would make her proud... I have not done that.  Not at all...

One of my favorite phrases that I actually did come up with myself is "Live your life the way you want your wikipedia article to read."  I have always felt like I am meant for a greater existence than this...

So I'm in the running for the kitchen manager at Casey's.  I'm not sure if I'll accept it if I get it.  I mean it's definitely a step up from bottom rung... but they want me on call 24/7.  Yes it's a 24 hour store but... I don't think I'll be able to go to school... but I need the money and I... I wish Amanda was here.  I could get a giant hug and know that everything will be fine in the end.  But as it is... I'm trying to do what's best for me, I just have no idea what the fuck I'm doing.  I want more, and it seems Casey's is in my way... so what the hell do I do?  I need a road map.  Sigh... kid, I might be meant for more... but I can't seem to get there since I fucked up my chance.  I'm such an idiot... I just... I want an absolute answer.  But that is impossible.