What the hell is happening to me? I keep slipping farther and farther. This whole weekend has been one giant spiral downwards. So I started with some video games... that didn't work... so next some movies... I've been on a huge marvel kick lately so I had a marvel movie marathon... that didn't help. I tried talking to friends... but thE ones that don't ignore me are proving to be insufficient.
I'm not sure where I'm at. It's weird how it can feel like the whole cosmos is stacked against you... I guess I am trying to find a window but yet...
I know there are people whose lives are worse than mine. But thinking about that makes things worse! All I feel is suffering. I help as many as I can through it, but I can't seem to open up to them when it's time. I have trust issues. In my defense, I have plenty of reasons to...
I don't feel like me anymore. I feel like an empty shell. Like I'm trapped in this shell... in this life. I want out, I need to destroy this shell... and be set free... God help me
