A lot of people have been questioning my motivations for things lately. It seems people are wondering if a lot of my recent changes in behavior are due to some other influences (drugs were suggested.... ummm.... no). I'm not sure if I really want to put this out here yet. I might do it... think better of it and take it down... or I might leave it up... I don't really know right now. People who know me know I have trust issues. There are only like maybe 5 people on earth I open up to at all... and even that takes a lot. But here goes...
When I started showing an interest in art, my parents got curious. When I started going back to my old comedy books and pull my old stand up ideas out of the box... well I haven't really told many about that one for various reasons. When I started moving away from western style compositions to more... audio design projects, the people I talked to couldn't wrap their heads around it. When I wanted to go back to school for business management, there was going to be a second area of study I never told anyone about... organizational management... which had more to do with my plans after they started coming together. When I wanted to get a new youtube channel reserved and waiting for me to enter content, a lot of people laughed at me. When I went for 30 days without video games, then decided to try something else and asked for ideas as well as research some, there was a purpose behind it.
First off... let me explain something. I have no desire to be famous for the fame. I don't want that lifestyle. What I want is more akin to influence. I want enough influence to rally a group of people together and point them in a single direction for a greater good. I don't want the bright flashy lights, I just want to help move the world forward to a better one.
That's why I'm getting out the old stand up materials. This is part of my goal to reach as many people as possible. I want a fan community that is willing to help out their neighbor. Which also brings me to my youtube channel. I want my channel to develop enough subs to do a large charity drive on a regular basis. A lot of the ones that inspired me previously have seemed to lose this part of their job and I want to make up for it by making it the primary focus of my channel. I'll provide content to gain subs, then on a VERY regular basis do some charity drives with those subs and raise some money. I'm also hoping to expand on some skills during this. I already have plans for a series of videos watching me try to actually get good at guitar, and then use said skills to play outside my store for spare change during one of Casey's many charity drives they have every year. The art part of my behavior comes in to play as I try to design logos, thumbnails, graphics, and other visual mediums to add to the channel, and the music changes revolve on my attempts to add audio and themes to the videos.
In order to run both of these, I will need substantial funding, and thus I will need a better job. That is what brings me to going back to school and getting my degree. It also has the organizational management part so I can work with various non profit charity groups and then start my own... which brings me to my endgame.
I want to start a charity that will work with other various education organizations to help children overcome every possible obstacle in school, from learning disabilities to bullying. Unlike most charities that consider their work done after the child graduates high school, I want mine to keep working with them until they get a good job... after college. I know that's a massive undertaking and might even be impossible but to top it all off, I want one thing...
If there is one ultimate goal I can accomplish before I've breathed my last on this earth, this is the one:
I want to gain enough backing to hold an annual rally somewhere, called the Unity Through Diversity Festival. I want this rally to celebrate how we're all different parts of a whole. I want to have musicians, comedians, celebrities, all kinds of people come and talk to their fans. I want people to have a great time with people of differing religions, cultures, political viewpoints, etc. I want it to be a beacon of true human fellowship to the world.
Let me do this one thing before I pass...
